I go through this rolling of recovering over and over of the flu until my immune system has built up enough to combat it AND maintain healthy levels for me to live instead of survive! It is a difficult time for me since I am one who loves and appreciates life so much.
I am still somewhat saddened that sometimes others don't understand the fight I have with an overworked immune system. In reality, most don't have the proper information, so they are making uninformed decisions in their estimation of my situation and how I should be handling it. To be honest, they don't know the half of it, but it's all good - Romans 8:28.
Even though I don't live in an area where there is snow, I love the snow. Mind you I said snow, not the icy conditions that come with it! Oh and of course, I have to include that I love the snow as long as there is a working fireplace and heating system in place (yes both) !
Winter time becomes a time for me where I find God encourages me so much through His Word, His Presence and His Love because I end up spending a lot of time at home. It's a time I turn inward and become quiet in such a deep way and find God there waiting to give me gifts of revelation of His Word and His Presence. You know how you get to the bottom of the bowl of some yummy dessert and find the best bites are there waiting for you to relish? It's kind of like that. Sorry, best analogy I had!
By time I am feeling better, I have such a grateful, appreciative and thankful mindset that it seems worth it. I see so many who have no understanding or appreciation for the gift of life that God gives them. They totally take physical health (as well as His Presence and Goodness) in their life for granted. It has given me such a burden to share every opportunity God gives to share the honor it is to have health and not only that but to have every gift and ability He gives us, no matter how small or insignificant WE think it is.
The bad part of winter? Because my immune system is fighting double and triple overtime to get well and back to healthy levels, my energy on a level from 1-10 goes from nonexistent to a 4 or 5. If it goes any higher? I know it is straight God for me to do that thing (for I daily am praying and decreeing, even if it is from my bed in an exhausted whisper!). I miss being in God's corporate presence as I miss church more during this time.
I love God, His Word so very much. To know that within myself is one of the most important deliverances I received during a winter time. It has been the winter times that I have ended up developing and maturing the deep things that He had shared with me from the rest of the year in church because it was just me and God so many days.
Still, because I don't travel as much during the winter I look forward to being at home ministry more and it's a bit frustrating not being able to. I can't wait until we are recording services on DVD; that will be a great thing.
Anyway, with a short break from school I am doing a lot of writing, my love for sure. I hope to complete some projects but it will be God's Will not mine as my energy and foggy head have been a struggle to push through, but where there is a challenge, I seem to keep getting up and putting my best foot in Christ forward!
Love and encouragement to all who read this!
Talitha Cumi!
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